Tis few mths so many so many things happened..
Siian 1/2
My life jus wrk n slp,slp n wrk...So boring n so tired.
I wan everything to be fine..can i?
I dun like people do things behind my back, u wan u do it in front of me..
I really dunno wad the frk happening, iSNT gt other char bo or i really tink too much le..
In front of me sms so secretive will gt simi gd things.
I'm nt happy, veri unhappy.
Maybe as wad frenzs say,i wrk too long hrs le..
I dun even know wtf he been doing outside..
Maybe really dun wan wrk le..haiz!
11 daes more is our 1yr anniversary.
I wan something tat money can't buy..
i wan a truth heart wit no lies n faithful..
4.20pm
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I forgot my blogger pw lols so cannot blog.
I'm lazy to reset.
Jus happened to saw gracie blog n so on, the anon so frking de lame!!
LOL..I dunno wad to say abt the anon.
TOO free le come comments people who pretty who nt..
Who childish???pOPLE gt EYES to see la...ROFL
Show ur link n attach ur photo let me see hw pretty r u?
soo curious..
Come comments me...Pls i finding people to kan nia..(",)
Last FRidae!! Happened to know something..
I dunno the person isnt U !!!
I hope i get the frking wrong person...
Wan firlt else where PLS!!!
AS FOR TAT FRKING BIITCHHH
ERM bo lang wan ar...LOL
IF i would u, i FIND another better man liao la..
So Long liao..
Why keep hang at tis R/s when u know tat is no hope at all..
TOOpig LOh!! EDucation so high!! no brain ar!!
Seriously i pity u soooo much!!!
Wad if he love u?? he still mine..haha
Or maybe waiting for him??
If he leave me/divorce, u tink he will get marry again..
ERm sry la..i can confirm he 100% won't la.
Maybe in his 30s lOL.
Stop ur LALaland dream la..
Why keep view my frenzster ?? i dun understand!! Miss me aR??? hummmmmm!
Married man more charming isnt.. =.="
But why i dun tink soooo :P
I wan go slp le..i will have a sweet dream slp tight tight tonite ^_^
4.37am
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2007 doesn't seem a good yr to me...Sigh. nTHINg diff at all!!
Can't help feeling bad abt my life...
Really full of regrets but tat's nthing i can do rite now..
My mind jus full of those thoughts, i dun wish to.
Should i really do wad i wish to, or jus continue the life i am leading now..
I jus wan to get rid of my burden..
I dun wan hurt,dun wan tears,dun wan lies..
I jus wan to be happy..
I'm confused..Sigh..
SHould i walk forward the pathway when i know tat won't be any ending point or stop the pathway when i know i gt a turnback!
Really tired!!
4.19am
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WEdnesdae
Went dinner wit dear and babymin at bugis,steamboat again..zzz Before tat quarral wit him..Veri sianz always quarral and quarral, throw my hp on the road and now my hp spoilt..fuck!!After tat went sky pub meet mendy and michelle..Finish singing and we head to momo.LOL i saw mich drink till so song, always like to drink. Haha i order a whisky on the rock for her,see the way she drink...Give me a stupid face...ROFL! Mich went hm at 1 plus, cos of her laogong..Totally no freedom lo, nev mind la at least still can go out..^^ Michelle went hm then jane, mendy and me head to o-bar...I knew i was gg to drunk le..zzz Left at 3am. Mendy and me went geylang eat prawn mee.Me reach hm ard 5plus..So drunk...
Thursdae
slept all the way to noon..so tired
Evening time asked dear out, told me midnite..
keep on msg him ask him out..Fuck in the end he say i irritating..
Maple maple all he know is maple..
whole dae nev eat,so farking pek cek liao..
In the end he went lavender eat and ask me dun go..
Todae so sianz..rain and rain none stop..act wanted to go out wit frenzs tis afternoon,in the end too lazy to go..Two daes nev eat jus slp and slp..I can be god le..
Dear msg me in msn asked me go eat...in the end where also nev go due to him always attuide.
Dunno why always quarral..I start to get bored le..Can't he jus be nice to me..Haiz
Saw mendy give birth le change so much, he dun even wan to care abt his laogong liao..
Now she more happy then last time le..At least she knew wad she really wan now..I also wan to be happy leh..but i dunno wad i wan leh...
Stop here le....gastric pain sob....
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Jus now dear met me and we went geylang eat crab and steamboat...Now he stomach pain pain!! loL Dunno why i nev kanna, always after steamboat he confirm stomach pain..zzz
Think dear gt gastric problem.
Must stop eating steamboat and buffet from todae onwards...
Back hm at 10plus, maple all the way finally lvl.. =x
NOw can go slp le..
4am
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I'm sick again..haiz
Jus back fr genting and kl on mon onli..So sad jus brought few things.
Thanks to dear loh..He onli shop for his things!!
Maple maple i crazy with maple again but still noob...sob
Sudd really miss him so much, tis whole week my mind kept on appearing him.
Play maple also can play till my tears drop..zzz
Mendy told me he saw a guy look like him at tamp central..Really gt someone who look alike meh? HAiz dunno..Maybe character nt alike ba.
Wad if i really saw the same guy? how will i react?? zzz
Think too much liao ba!
If now he is still with me, my life will better ba. Maybe i am more happy rite now!
No need to think think think so much everydae...
It impossible la.
Am i really expecting too much from dear...Why everyone think so!!
I nev expect him to be perfect or like whoever..
I jus wan him treat me gd..
But no matter how many times i said, he still the same..
Cos he always think i'm irritating to him, talking rubbish as well.
He jus let me feel i nev even stand a place in his heart.
Everything to him wu shou wei...wu shou wei....
He jus keep things to himself..Everything i dunno i dunno!!
Outsider even know more then me....
Haiz dunno la...sick of tis!!
Gg to bed le...Cannot slp also must force myself to slp..Need to wake up look after aden!
WAD a life!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Nite nite!!
4.30am
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Spend my whole dae looking for one christmas present.
Morning went tamp central do something then head to tamp mall wit my daughter..
Brought a Big big toy for my daughter for christmas present..
Went tamp mall act wanted to look for the present tat i wan buy for dear,in the end dun haf the one i wan...Haiz
Went back hm, evening alone went to parkway parade, search here and there..
The crowd is so pack till i wan faint liao,still can't get wad i wan!!! Aiyo get one present make me so stress!!!! T.T
Already 9+ liao, Still can't get anything..Went out to the taxi stand see the queue there, like take cab no need pay any!!!zzz
So tired liao, so disappointed also...Last min idea, took cab to cathay at last i found it.. Keke
Asked the assistant to get me the new piece n the size, he search here and there for 20min..zzZ
HE told me dun haf liao...Omg!! LUCKY another sales assistant help me search yet he found the last piece....If nt i sure go knock wall liao!!!
Went to plaza sing shopping, brought myself a pair of heels(also last pair for my size) and some other things...
Todae really spent till my pocket gt a big hole liao!!I spent $300plus for one dae!! =.="
I still need to on call cab hm.If nt i no need go hm liao...
Dear act told me wad he wan..But i'm sry dear, i really can't get wad u wan!!!Hope u dun get disappointed ok?
Siao liao....nowadaes i dun take dinner!!!ZZZ
I so hungry now...sob!!
tHiNgs I BrOuGht!!!
The wrapping is sux...nt done by me! LOL
11.55pm
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If i nev said something wrong, i tink i won't be back hm todae..
Dear is really veri unhappy wit my blog!!! I knew it..
Two daes nev took dinner liao...Sudd i feel so hungry..
But my cough and flu seems no better but become worst after i cried in the cab..zz
Something make me veri veri afraid right now, after giving birth to aden something happened to my body... Will i leave the world, aiya who cares??? HAha
Got to sms him told him all the things yet isn't so important? Or jus a stupid sms?
Thinking back tat dae at geylang eating steamboat wit him, i said something abt the cupboard.
His react is really really veri serious!! I feel happy for him but feel sad for myself, cos he act gt really love someone so much in the past...
21 dec----Dear went out, back in awhile wit a christmas gift for me...
Dear really thanks alot..muacks
Although i put the gift back to u!
22dec----Brought aden to kk for check-up..
He went there take blood test on his hands where we put drip on our hand.
My baby aden really really veri veri brave,even the nurse said tat.
He nev scream,nev cried but he is tolerating the pain.
His face is veri veri red.
I knew take blood from there is really really veri painful.
Cos i tried before in hospital i nearly cried out.
Somemore the nurse took his blood for 5mins..Omg blueblack somemore..
Result haven't out.. hope he is fine..Nthing will happen!!!
Pics taken by my daughter!!
Update "mendy" baby boy (asher) photo..
Born at 11/12/2006
"Michelle" baby ger (fenella) so much diff liao !!Zzz
One more dae christmas eve liao...I haven't brought anything for dear.
I dun wan disappoinment in tis christmas pls!!!!
Stop here liao gg bath then gg to bed..I gonna faint liao..My head veri pain!!
12.45am
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After seeing doc,the nurse brought aden to a bed and put a tube inside aden nose...
So painful but i can't even do anything but onli can wait outside the curtain and heard him crying..Haiz..Heartpain!!!
Now Aden, Dear and Me having bad cough and flu... T.T
Hope we get well soon!!
So sick right now but still need to look after aden...I took med liao feel so sleepy yet aden took med liao,keep crying and dun wan to slp..I gonna crazy liao!!
Christmas is coming soon..But i hate christmas esp last yr christmas..
I really hope tis yr christmas will be different from last yr...
I dun wan to see anything anymore..
Sometimes i find myself veri funny..I like to see some things yet i know i will get angry and sad after looking at that..But i jus can't stop myself...
Why life jus can't be peaceful and full of happiness?
I know life is full of up and down..But why wad i gone thru is jus nt the need to be??
I thought a marriage is the two of us,shouldn't had third one???
Why always no ending at all but jus continue and continue....
The ans i wan yet i always can't get any....
Right now ur heart should know who u really love and really care??
Why bother to drag on???
I know u really change alot le..But then all i ask for is jus an ans..I dislike triangle love!!!
I dun wish to quarral wit u cos of tis stupid things....
9.55pm
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MY bAbY BOy pHoTos
Recently i'm veri fine..As for my dear leh,he treat me nt like last time le...I'm veri happy rite now haha!!Yest nite went alameen eat wit dear and his frenzs then they went lan shop play maple.. =.=" At lan shop nthing for me to do and no chair for me to sit..All he care onli his zakum..Faint..Nvm i nt angry cos is me myself wan follow him...Went mendy hm find her tok cock and watch show...Lying on the bed chit chat then around 4am i felt asleep, even dear sms me i nev even heard..At abt five plus,finish his game le went mendy hm fetch me..Now already 9.30am i nt yet slp..Haiz tink no need slp le cos i gg out soon..As for wed nite i found out something but then i dunno is it wad i tink. *Sad I hope really really nt. I wanted to ask him but then i scared to know the truth..Haiz.Jus now came back hm sms him but then his reply made me angry..Reply half way no reply le..Maybe is nt wad i thought,mistaken him so he angry!!Dunno isnt??
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Saturdae went out wit dear..act wanted to go suntec,so jam can't even go in then we head to bugis.Reach bugis went to have dinner wit ryan and anna..After tat went arcade pak game...bo liao!! I saw a big pig so cute >.< buT put $$ inside take sweet lucky then will get the pig..Mustwell i go buy one better..After tat went to melody valley pub where darlene wrk..Dear keep wan to find quarral wit me..tink i toopig..HAHa i won't loh.. :P STay there awhile then went to ms pak number balls. T.T Finish playing we went geylang eat dim sum..All my fav food yet i can't even eat..Sad!!Reach hm at around 4plus,my bb aden woke up till morning then get in slp..I was so tired!!zzz
Mondae met angie and mendy at tampines,then we went ica made my aden birth ceft..
My bb called Aden Koh Yang Jun nice!! :P Then after that went to angie mum house see her baby..Haha her younger bb so cute so chuby,keep sticking to me..Why ar cos i gt mama smell isn't..T.T
At around 6pm dear dear come fetch me then went sim lim made his car sound system.. I tink we waited there 4hrs..Faint..Leave the car there and we walk to nearby hawker centre have dinner..Saw someone that we shouldn't saw,anyway the both of them reaction so funny..Make me feel like laughing..^^
After everything done,dear dear paid money T.T total he spent for the dae = 1k Win liao!!! He strike 4d on sundae brought bb aden birth date..Why nev ask me buy also.Kaoz..angry!!But onli abit money nia but better then dun have...
TO bb aden daddy** bb let u strike 4d yet u nev buy things for bb..BAD DADDY!!!HAHA
stop here le..need to look after my bb!!
7.25pm
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Reach bukit panjang,my mother in law keep complain tis and tat..Eh i dun like ok!!Wad also blame me.kaoz,my son in ur hand u look after then say me for wad?I look after also no like tat!!
I see the way she make milk i gonna faint!!Act i gonna spent my nite over there,but someone scare like shit!!Selfish guy scared i touch his com..Dunno gt wad secret??
Quarral with him again after he hang up the phone wit his frenzs,the way he tok seem veri funny loh..Aiya i really dunno!! I really dunno wad the hell happened to me and him..I dun wish to be like tis but then......it jus like a cycle which happened everydae..I keep asking myself wad the hell is happening.. If tis problem nt solve,our love already fated..But one thing i know he love bb aden alot..I veri happy liao!!
I ask him to give me the turtle keychain,he ask me to ask other gers..Wtf i was fucking angry wit him,but then he treat it as nthing..
Now bb aden is back wit me... =)
TOdae is my bro qin birthdae.." HAPPY BIRTHDAE TO HIM "
Later he gg register for bike..wish him good luck..Faster get his lic..
1.12pm
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=.=" while waiting for dear,i snap and i found out i'm fat + my tired eyes n dark circles..faint i wan facial!!!!!!
Does daddy and son look alike..why nobody look like me..humpf
YaWN!! Juz woke up,i'm still tired..bB adeN nt wit me liao,sob! Yest afternoon dear come fetch me and aden back to bukit panjang..He asked me to leave aden there let her mummy look after..Eh i should be happy cos i no need to spend all the time looking after aden,no need to woke up in the middle of the nite feed milk.Why i nt happy at all leh,haiz.Maybe cos i nev mind before ba,tis is part of mummy job...I MISS ADEN!!!!
Act a mariage couple should be staying together but then we never.Maybe cos we nev stay together our r/s become like tat.. =.=" He also dun wish to stay wit me,wad for i go there..Haha..Dear so selfish sure dun let me touch tis and that..IDIOT!! :p And i hate the feeling waiting at hm for the person to return..It A SUX FEELING..Maybe i need time to tink wad should i really do!!
Later i wan go find my bb aden!!!! =)
9.35am
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On fridae nite i back from hospital,but no strength to upload pic and blog..He fetch me back hm,but when he reach hospital all the while he been giving me attuide + stupid black face.If i know i dun discharge on my will, help him save on hospital bill yet i given a stupid face..On the way hm still say i suay him again..Arr he say he gg divorce wit me if i dun do so, he sure do something to make me divorce wit him.Reach hm i went to take shower,in the end my wound bleed..So painful whole nite can't slp...Sob
Sat morning i woke up with pain,on my com and blog but post gone now!!
Logged in my frenzster yet i saw a new message receive,so shock really damm shock.
I saw a pic and the msg,my tears start to drop..Arrr i can't even control my tears.
Act my wound veri veri pain but then i can't feel it anymore cos my heart is more pain at that moment.
WaD both of them trying to prove to me??"One" last nite jus said wan to divorce wit me.."Another one" said he didn't love me at all and he promise her to divorce wit me..They are trying to tell me they r deeply in love isn't..ccb..Fuck OFF la..Ya la i knew tat i'm the third party from the start la cos they nev break off before..Jus tat i dunno anything at all cos i trust him i thought really no more le..In the end!!!Jus blame myself for my stupidness loh..
The keychain ya is a pair,both of them had one of it..No need to take pic give me see one...BITCH!!!!!!WHen i saw the keychain before i admit in hospital,i still ask him who brought the keychain for him.Yet he told me tat he brought it himself..No wonder i gt a feeling tat time then i asked him wad if we walked then sudd we saw her..Ya bastard he still can give me fucking cool reaction..fuck him la..keychain remind me of something,no matter wad thing i brought tat include my name..Ya few daes later it will auto gone missing..Haha so funny!!
Ya happiness onli she could give him..I onli know how to give him stress,ask for money and suay him..
Then dun wear the ring anymore cos the ring is proof of our love,no love still wear for wad..wearing the ring on the finger but holding another ger hand..The feeling u know ma???
Sat afternoon went hospital see my bb aden..Fucking nurse i tink they nev feed my bb,when i reach i carried my bb..He was so cold and hungry..When i feed him milk,he suck non stop..When i was staying in the hospital,he nev like tat one lo...He even pass motion then the nurse nev change for him..I tink he pass it long ago le..FUCK THE NURSE...
Later gg hospital see my bb..I tink he can discharge later on le..Hope so la..There so cold then they nev care..HAIZ heartpain my bb leh..
Stop here le..Go wash my bb things first..
9.19am
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Due to a person now my eye is swallon,so itchy.
Humpf i'm so hungry,whole dae i jus ate one meal and tat's maggi mee.Sob
Later must wake up early early go out buy things then go eat if nt one mth cannot eat wad i wan..sad!!Later tonite stay at hospital sure can't slp le,then next morning will be inside operation room liao.Scare the feeling..After tat still must stay in hospital,maybe till mon..haiz!!Haven't pack my bag yet =.="Later still must wake up at 8plus,yawn tired..
Someone said he won't acc me to hospital,won't come see me..Ok fine it ok ba!!
Once tat happened u forever also no need come liao!!! =)
NOwadaes like to go pub cos of wad ar...lol "i'm busy i gt wrk to do can't meet u"
can u dun lie to me anot..Can't u tell me e truth?????
If u lie mean tat u gt things hide from me if dun have why lie???
Do wrong things still dare to scold other people..
ANGRY!!!
Tired go rest awhile is damm late le 6am liao..zzZ no time!!
6am
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One min ago he is fine damm gd,after one min he change..zzZ
After ms we went back hm at around 4plus ba..First time i can had a chance to talk to him for so long. =)
Sundae wake up le,went for dinner then back hm le..
Jus now meet mendy 4.30pm at bugis went to eat yoshinoya..After tat walk awhile went suntec,brought quite alot of things..Saw the mummy doll doll,act wan to buy one pair but then another one abit spoilt..The one i wan left one n onli then in the end i nev buy..Haiz. After tat walked to marine square,went kiddy palace brought $50plus baby things..WAo tis one mths i spend alot of money..I'm so poor now..Anyone wanna give me money spent?? HAha..Shop till the shop closed!!Last destination went geylang eat prawn noodles.. In the end mendy hubby fetch me hm.And now my back so painful,maybe cos i walked too long liao..I'm really veri tired leh,but i jus can't slp..Now i slp later wake up,slp one more dae i will be in hospital liao..I'm totally lost rite now..I wonder when i being push to the operation rm will i burst out of tears,will he be outside waiting for me out?I damm scare now loh fuck lo i nev been so scare before..Haiz.I dun wan to give birth liao le la,for mths i can't really get a sweet dream..Sad! Gonna drive me crazy le.Jus now jimmy acciidently called me but then he dunno,i overheard he toking to a ger and a guy..He is in a pub,haha maybe my dear is there also but then i nev ask..too tired to ask,if he wan to lie to me.I really gt nthing to say anymore,instead of acc me then he went pub..Ok fine all the best to him then..Haiz stop here le,too tired to contiune liao..
4AM
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Wao i still duno tis past two mths u gt a wonderful life leh..SO shocking man!!
(Wrk) hahas Enjoying ur fucking life outside and i'm suffering at hm..
(Busy) Ya seriously u r damm fucking busy.."YES U R" Wit ur enjoyable life.. =)
Nt bad la..Keep it up still can hide so fucking long from me! thumbs up for u!!
Sms/call=no reply (if nt reply i'm busy rite now) Ok thanks ar..Now i knew how wonderful u r?
And seriously u doesn't suit e wrds i wrking hard jus for the sack of baby...Keep back ur wrds and fucking save it back...I tink ur baby dislike it veri much!!!! ok?
I gt no wrds to describe u at all..nt a single wrds..NONE OK.
U nev acc me,nt even a single min
U nev call me,nt even a single call
OK if u r wrking,i gt no wrds to spoke rite now..No complains
AND NOW U FUCKING TINK PROPERLY WAD THE FUCKING THINGS U DID??
beFORE SHOUTING AT ME... **think**
2.25pm
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